[She trails off, unsure of what she even means to say next. While she doesn't doubt what A2 says, or even what 9S said, it's hard for her to imagine, just how devastating her loss might have been when it wasn't a problem to her in the first place. When it she doesn't think it would've been that bad of a problem for 9S. Even though he's already explained to her that it was bad, that's all he's ever said of it. That the world was a dark place without her.
But she's never really asked him why that was. What he did after she was gone. It hadn't seemed important to know at the time, but maybe it is.]
[ she hesitates in replying, taking her time to think of the proper way to answer her. A2 has never had a problem with being honest about anything, but in many ways, this doesn't feel like something she should say outright. 9S didn't tell 2B about what happened afterwards to protect her, and who is she to ruin that? ]
He was devastated. [ an understatement, but that's the best thing she could come up with. ] Like he lost his whole world and didn't know what to live for.
... Even though I was the reason he couldn't live in the first place.
[It seems like such a contradiction, and she has a hard time wrapping her mind around it. Even after he said as much himself, there's something grounding yet frightening to hear it from another person, to know that 9S was distressed enough to truly show it rather than keep it to himself as he tends to do.]
There's so much more he could live for though. Here, especially. [In a place where not only could they fulfill their purpose, but where others already cared for him so deeply? Surely there was something better to live for than his killer.]
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[She trails off, unsure of what she even means to say next. While she doesn't doubt what A2 says, or even what 9S said, it's hard for her to imagine, just how devastating her loss might have been when it wasn't a problem to her in the first place. When it she doesn't think it would've been that bad of a problem for 9S. Even though he's already explained to her that it was bad, that's all he's ever said of it. That the world was a dark place without her.
But she's never really asked him why that was. What he did after she was gone. It hadn't seemed important to know at the time, but maybe it is.]
What was he like, after it?
sorry for the delay!
He was devastated. [ an understatement, but that's the best thing she could come up with. ] Like he lost his whole world and didn't know what to live for.
GRIPS YOUR SHOULDERS it's okay!!
[It seems like such a contradiction, and she has a hard time wrapping her mind around it. Even after he said as much himself, there's something grounding yet frightening to hear it from another person, to know that 9S was distressed enough to truly show it rather than keep it to himself as he tends to do.]
There's so much more he could live for though. Here, especially. [In a place where not only could they fulfill their purpose, but where others already cared for him so deeply? Surely there was something better to live for than his killer.]